did i spoke too soon...?

when i thought that this would be the ramadhan to remember...it turn out to be one i would want to forget...
some assholes (mind the vulgarity...but damn i'm pissed off!) broke into our house last night...dammit...get a life dumbass'...stop ruining others'...i lost my most expensive possession...please dont say something crappy that'll piss me off further aight...they got my laptop...all my reports, pictures, files, games, whateva shit that i put inside it could be lost forever...timeless memories gone coz of some guys who dont have something more important to do in their life stole it...dammit!
shit happens...this wont be an amazing year anyway...its full-o-shit...shit keeps on happening...
this comes to show how crappy life can be...i just hope i can claim my stuff from the insurance company...that'll brighten up a bit my already dimly lit year...screw you guys...
i am still hoping this ramadhan could turn out to be much better...please...

how it was...

it was fine so far...im talking about ramadhan...well i know its only been 2 days...but i think i can see this ramadhan to be a sweet one!...i hope it would be...
so far...assignments have been delivered on time...i dont feel the type of pressure as the previous assignments...maybe coz these ones are relatively "easy"...the real test would be when i need to finish my supposed-to-be-about-60pages-long boiler report in the next week...huhu
well...the year is almost over...i mean the uni year...raya is coming...then i'll be going home...b4 that i'll be going to aussie to jalan2....ooo yeah!
well first things first...need to concentrate on my puasa...thats the most important thing rite now...then i need to increase skit2 amalan tuh...hehe...then i need to focus on completing my assignments the best i can...then study all my might for the exams...then i need to work skit2 to get money to go shopping in msia...then i can relax...then kene keje practical lak...down...
well...thats how it was so far...

heart not satisfied (tak puas hati aa nih)...

apsal?...why?...
coz...i think im getting dumb!...dammit...i sat for about 1 hour looking at my coil on solid works yet i havent got a clue how to extend the pipes at the ends...i was hoping to find some other chemical engineers...but to my despair...non were in sight...except ben robinson...not that close to him...
now i am looking at my mass transfer assignment...not that sure about it either...i put the paper back into my bag...and now...i am looking at my 250 safety assignment...ok la...this one can do a little2 (skit2)...
aaaaa...i miss chemistry!...where are all the chemical formula and reactions and energetics and kinetics and organics and all those other stuff...i think this is the only subject i can master quite quickly compared to others...especially not maths!

inspired...

i woke up late...didnt went to two lectures...assignments still long way away from completion...but i am inspired...not coz im screwed up or sumthing...but coz i just heard a very inspiring khutbah by abg hamdan during friday prayers...
i need a ramadhan...why?...coz this is the time of the year where one really starts to ponder and starts to realize the importance of being a muslim and the reason we were sent to this world...well at least i do...
i know i'm not the best muslim out there...if you were to point out a muslim friend to be taken as example from...i'm sure no one would point at me...i know i am not the most pious of persons...yet i do work towards becoming a better person, physically, mentally and even spiritually...and this holy month of ramadhan made me more aware of my responsibilities and my reason of existance...
i know i should've been consistent throughout the year, heck even throughout my lifetime if not better...but it seemed so hard...i dunno...maybe i need my enlightenment as well...
well...in short...i need a ramadhan...who knows maybe this ramadhan would be the fresh start i'm looking for...and who knows maybe this ramadhan would be the one where all good things lie ahead of me after a year of disasters in my life...who knows...?...The Almighty knows...

holding on...

still holding on...
its 4 am...like i dont have something else to do but to write this entry...
i just finished (for the nite...or morning) my report...its not complete...but i really had done some progress compared to a few days back...just need to confirm few things with frens tomorrow then i can complete the calculations and finish the 'gorengan' parts...such as discussion...oo yeah...it really tests my skills of proffessional crapping...yeah u heard me...'crap'ing...usually not much thought put into the section...just mere concepts and flowery sentences...huahaha
well, enuf with assignments already...i wanna talk about something else...
where do i start...hmm...come to think of it...my brain's too strained to be coming up with topics...hahaha...sorry guys...just wanna make this post longer...hmmm...my brain cant work very well at this hour...so i'm off to go sleep at the couch...im pretty sure aiman's already on one of the couches...i'll take the other one...i feel i can get up mush easier when i sleep on the couch...my bed's too comfy...too irresistabubble!...huahaha...now...u guys are reading my crapping rite now...getting senile by the minute...not permanently tho...just due to tiredness...
so im going to sleep...chow...my eyes started to water already...

warming...

the good news bout today was that i already started on my evaporator report...the bad news was that it was not much!just a little theory part...havent even gotten into the calculations yet...damn im slow...
alip, napie, anas n myself went to newbridge today.newbridge?never heard of it?well its the new girls house resided by mun, che ah and anne...its located sumwhere along maidstone road...i think so...not that good with places around here...lots of other guys came as well...tengkuk, tomen, supep, ila, ain, bijan, bernie to name a few...the hosts were having a house warming event for their newly resided home...not sure how long theyve been staying there tho...we recited surah yasin n doa lead by napie...then...guess what?we makan la!well i wouldnt avoid free food now wouldnt i?well not most of the times...
tonite gotta do my report a little bit more...at least if i can finish all the intro, methods, apparatus parts tonite i would be happy enuf...tomorrow i can start the calculations, appendices, results, and the rest of it...that'd be sweet...!
ooo ya...i need to finish my job early because tonites theres gonna have 2 very much anticipated matchups...chelsea vs liverpool...and...Man Utd vs arsenal!...go MAN UTD!...i hope theyre gonna put on a fine performance and beat arsenal to take back the lead from portsmouth...go rooney n ronaldo...!ooo yeah!

not very fruitful

i am referring to today...not the most fruitful of days...woke up late...what do ya expect when i slept when the sun almost rose...not much work done...yet...i still hope i can get my report started...
i had just read anas' blog (http://www.kisahitu.blogspot.com/), and really liked the latest entry...a little a lot splashed on me (sedikit sebyk tempias kat aku)...not to mention the intended similarity of names and venue selection to that of common knowledge(he emphasized it has nothing to do with any mates)...
it makes you think...n damn i never stop thinking...if only i could just get on with life the way the rest of my frens did...maybe i wont be stuck here regretting everything...think again...what if...what if...stop it already!...
aaahhh...this comes to show how feeble men are...well maybe not all men...maybe its just me...maybe i lack the mental strength, not being resolute...i dunno...i am weak...i admit it...
how could i do things better?...

cant wait!...

let me start off with an expression that this hasnt been the best of weeks...it hasnt been so for quite some time...its very hectic...well with my work ethics not improving...it mightve been worse...my bad habit of procastinating wasnt helping either...fresh start...fresh start...where do i even begin...
ok...maybe some of u cant relate this to the topic...but actually all this workload has made me very impatient for the holidays to come...thats why i cant wait...i really need a break from this year...furthermore...i really missed my family back home...cant wait to see them...my parents...my brothers...all three of them...it was kinda heartbreaking to hear from my little bro that he was sad that i couldnt be home for raya with them the second year running...
i cant wait to finish all my assignments!...the next few weeks gonna be hectic like hell...i got like 5-6 assignments to be completed including two lab reports...ooo yeah...another materials lab report coming up next week...damn....
i hope i can get all this over with and hope to do a good job on each task...i really hope so...all the marks are important at this stage...i also hope my finals would be fine...damn im scared...

im in deep shit...not literally!

dammit! i screwed my thermo test big time!...the thing that pisses me off was that i think the questions werent that hard...its just like my mind became blank all of a sudden!im pretty sure the rest of the class could do it, no problem...in deep shit!
i just hope i'll be back here next year...

i need books!

no...not academic books!...novels...i havent been reading lately...it could be due to the fact that i have been really engrossed in my study (i bet i was!)...too many assignments and lab reports...damn!...cant find the time to read for leisure...
i cant really remember the last book i read...it could be the archer book i borrowed from sam...n i felt that seemed like ages ago...shit...
i am really looking forward for the holidays...i need to start reading again...gonna start a reading marathon like i did the last summer holidays...
so anyone have any suggestions for me to read during the holidays?...it would be nice if i could borrow them from u as well...sweet...

great day!

the chemical engineering students had a picnic yesterday...sweet as...everyone brought food n we had a great time...
the food was great...the venue was also good...the wheather was never better...it was the perfect day...pretty much aye...
we played some games afterwards...just for fun...had great laughs 'kutuking' some guys and demonstrators...ooo it was just fun...then we rent a singstar set n sang our lungs out...ara nak sgt nyanyi kan...hepi dah...
i hope we'll stay close despite the increasing workload...lets have more of these kinda activities...

glory...glory...man united!

tonite's gonna be a mouthwatering encounter between Man Utd (the 2006/07 champion-to-be) and one of the big spenders this season...tottenham hotspurs....ooo yeah!
without the suspended duo of scholes n rooney,man utd's gonna rely on the vast experience of giggs and the ever-so-menacing pace and speed of saha to spearhead their attack...i hope tonite's game gonna be awesome...n that man utd's gonna emerge victorious n mantain their 100% record!...oo yeah...n eventually be the champions...it has been too long for a 'real' champion to win the league...a real english team, a team built on strong foundations and a combination of youth n experience not rely on superstars who are lured by money!...oo yeah...no offense to the u-know-which team supporters...i'm just being a fanatic here...
lets watch the game tonite!ooo yeah!
another thing...sharapova n federer are gonna win their respective us open title!ooo yeah!

plz let me go back home...

someone's forcing me to stay at the uni despite my intentions to go back home...huhu...
can i go home now?....huhu
die tgh stadi...but me...i'm doing this...

i got thru the first week!...but...

phew!...relief!...just friday to go and here come the weekends!groovy!

i may not be entirely satisfied with the quality of the assignments i sent in...everything was done in the nick of time...i wouldnt be surprised if i get terrible marks for my heat transfer assignment...this comes to show that my time management is still lacking...not to mention my habit of procastinating...

looking forward to a fresh start...i dunno how many times i said this but everytime i felt down...i thought of a fresh start...however...i havent been able to be consistent...its like the amount of gas was not enough to take me to the end...i always coughed and hiccupped and jolted and eventually came to a halt somewhere down the road...seldom close to the finish line...i need to find my motivation back...i cant seem to find something strong enough to push me to the checkered flag...

i dunno how much longer i can continue doing this...i cant hope to survive on my last minute boost all the time...i am pretty sure this strategy would backfire one day...as it almost did this week...when will i ever learn my lesson?...its not the first time i face a similar situation...yet i havent took any initiative to rectify my actions...just hoping that my luck wont run out...yet... and that i would learn my lesson soon enough before id regret it...

help...anyone?...any ideas?

hols almost over...

damn! thats the first word that came to my mind when i realized that lecture's gonna start in 4 days...

4 assignments to hand up in the first week and to wrap up a 'perfect' week, a thermo test must be faced on friday...it doesnt gets any better than this...believe me...

holidays...a combination of happy n very sad feelings...extremely happy when anim came n visit me here in chch...not many places were able to be visited due to lack of finance...but just having her here meant a whole lot to me...enjoying the time together...extremely sad to let her and see her go back to msia...its been painful...

workshop...i had three days of workshop...learnt using some kinda machine (forgot the name la)...basically it cuts steel so that some other objects can be made (we made a plump bob...whatever that is)...using that machine was cool...tho it was oily n made my lab coat kinda dirty (i hate it when whites gets dirty!...actually i hate it when anything gets dirty)...but the machine was waaaay cooler than welding...dunno why i dont really like welding...altho it was kinda exciting to be able to do those connectings n lines and whateva...but its not a task id rather be doing for the rest of my life or even for leisure...in a nutshell...the workshop helped a lot in terms of knowing safety aspects of handling the tools and machines...but we cant really learnt that much in terms of skills and techniques of using them in such a short period of time...

mlm msia...i dunno if its appropriate to comment on this...so if any of u guys are the organizing committee or cmsa students...plz know that this is not intended to condemn u guys...just a comment from a neutral perspective n perhaps can be improved in the future...
+ves - great concept, great venue, great food (quality food...but some might agree that the quantity was not much...but thats what we pay for right?so i think its okay maybe...), great mc's, great settings (acoustics,lightings,bla..bla), great ticket!, great backdrop...many more aspects are great...cant remember all
-ves - not really fluent flow (technical faults were unavoidable...but there were also few 'awkward moments' when i dunno whats going on), the program seemed 'empty' at times...maybe the intervals can be filled with someone singing or some more performances (i understand that not many volunteers were available...but since this was a msian night i think there should be performances from all races eg: chinese n indian, then we can show our diverse culture to the mat salleh's that were present)...
as a whole...i think it was ok...a really good night...oo another thing...great prizes!the coupons and vouchers was really a good idea...
i hope its taken as 'teguran membina' not 'kutukan' coz i think it was a really good event...