what happening so far...

i can't say i've settled in into my workplace because i haven't...plain and simple...i've been there for exactly a month and yet i am still floating from one desk to another when i'm in the control room...i have no workstation of my own (i don't think i will ever have one)...this is simply not the way i want to work...i think i would prefer being given a task and do it in my own space...i need my space...i hate sharing...especially when its not mine...darn...

the only good thing about this place is the food is cheap...and it makes saving money possible...besides that i hate it coz its so damn hot...the people talk in almost a different language...sometimes you just nod and smile...

the house is ok...but 1 problem after another keeps popping up...the internet never gets activated (we've applied for almost 3 weeks now)...my laptop crashed...i'll be going into shift hours next week meaning i will need a car...or else i need to tumpang people to work...shit...i'm in a mess...

all in all its a disaster...i still think i want to be in a technical sector rather than a non-technical one, but i would prefer if i get my own desk, my own computer and my own stationeries...i hate the condition i am in...please pray for my survival...that's all i can wish for right now...

and the working starts...

its been a while...i have been away for almost three weeks due to pipe a.k.a induction program...the usual stuff...i've gone thru quite a few similar sessions to know the gist of the program...

i can't say much about work coz i've only been to work for one day and its hardly anything besides HSE and HRM briefing...so that will have to wait...

my house is still currently not connected with internet (but i've applied for one)...so much of the updating will be done after that happens...

this is just an intro for the things to come...chiaow...

Is there really a silver lining within the cloud?

It all started well for me...everything was going according to plan...but as usual, no plan is foolproof...there is always a way for it to get disrupted...it is more disappointing when the fault is usually not ours but some other party...sound familiar...?

this has happen to me before yet why am i not prepared?...i knew it was all too good to be true...why was i not braced of the possibility of it happening again?...i guess i was too naive to believe everything would go my way anyway...guess again...life is never perfect...well at least i got my perfectly perfect support group; from my parents, my family, my Hanim and my friends...

if some of you might be thinking what the hell i'm talking about, just bear with me as the truth usually comes out...eventually...this is just a method for me to release some of the hatred i've been holding back...like a pressure relief valve...lol...that's as much of engineering i can remember...

anyway...life must and shall go on no matter what happens...and the world does not revolve around one's self...so i guess i have to pick myself up and get on with it...i'm too bored...

chiaow...

a fresh start?

i have abandoned this blog for so long that it feels awkward when i sat in front of my laptop typing this...

i finished my studies in december...the graduation was awesome as my family were able to make it to the ceremony...i have left NZ and now i'm in my hometown in Kota Kinabalu...no more assignments, tests, late night studying for me...at least not for now...but i'm pretty sure there'll be quite a number of nights filled with staying up but for different reasons once i started working...

the next step for me would be working...i just secured a job in labuan with a local oil and gas company...i can't say i'm completely psyched about it...i wasn't expecting to get the job this soon...i think i could still use the rest...but i guess this would be for the better...i mean, too much rest and the rust in my brain might be irreversible...lol...

i just hope to excel in my next adventure the way i did (or not quite) in my previous ones...it has been a personal ambition of mine to help my family ie my parents and repay them for what they have done to me all this while...even though i think my success was more than enough for my parents, i still think it is the responsibility of the child to help out the parents as much as possible...and being the eldest has an added responsibility to it...

i guess i will stop here...i hope this is a new beginning for me in blogging...

p/s: i hope all my friends (smesh, chch) would keep in touch...find me in facebook

fuhhhh fuhhhh (blowin the acumulated dust away)

I'm definitely no more an active blogger...that's official and for sure...

Just thinking of updating a bit on life and its challenges...
third pro of uni is definitely tiring...now with the research project sent and the design project completed (so far, still got loads to do tho), and with the test-during-study-week out of my way, i can finally flex my muscles a bit and spend time doing stuff i've been longing to do...which is nothing...

exam is on the way...a weeks time before my next paper...too early to study (i am not a good example for nerds)...i only have two exams this semester...which is a relief...i can't see myself behind stacks of books after what i've gone through...(sound like a lot aye? the thing is i am just plain lazy)...anyway i'm taking this opportunity to wish everyone the best of luck for their exams...let us include each other in our prayers as well...it is devastating when u succeed (by my definition is merely passing all subjects) but u know a friend just failed a paper...just takes the happiness away...so lets all do our best!!!

then there's the long-awaited interview...such a disappointment to learn that this year's interview is done in auckland instead of sydney...not fair!!!...why does it always have to be my turn when pet decides to change their policy...i've been screwed up time and again...sigh...

ooo yea... bersatu is coming too...always been looking forward for this annual event...but this year less than before...the preparations have'nt been great...everyone's busy i guess...i am busy...need to start going to the gym...get my fitness back up to par...probably do that tomorrow...

what else...ooo yea...oil prices are ridiculously high!!!...i think its the first time i've comment about such things but its about time i do so...i might not have felt the effect here in nz (coz i dont have a car)...but i'm definitely going to feel the pinch back in malaysia...i wonder if i can afford a car when i start working...damn it...i'm still not gonna get a kancil or a kelisa or whatever malaysian car there is (until they prove that its worth it tho)...damn...looks like i'm gonna have to stick to good old (still new actually) mum's car for now...hahaha...

i think im gonna stop here...another thing...who's gonna lift the euro 2008 cup? germany? portugal? holland? greece? (i was kidding when i put greece there, being sarcastic)...anyway, my favourites this time around is holland and portugal...but i won't be surprised if it was germany or spain either...all of them seem to have a formidable squad...so, go euro!!! just enjoy football as it should be...do i hear any amens? hehe

im off...

p/s: munzir, this one's for you...hoho

rhythm n talaan...

why that title you may ask...?

well...it has to do with music actually...

i've been watching american idol and apparently they claim that this season the pool of contestant is the most talented they ever had...i have my personal favorite...the ladies would say that david archuleta is the best mainly coz their judgement is clouded by the fact that they think david is kinda cute and baby-faced...

the one i would be voting for (if i can) goes by the name david too...it's DAVID COOK...probably the next daughtry...yeah...he's the rock star of the group...and he can sing any song but still sound original and not boring...i like it when people give their own twist to a song...the same way anwar robinson sang 'what a wonderful world'...

check out this video (the original singer of the song was mariah carey, but david made it his own)



this one's the anwar robinson video:

a fresh new year...

i'm finally back in chch after a lengthy summer break back in malaysia...tho the hols seems to be long, the actual amount of time i spent 'holiday-ing' is less due to the practical work i have to complete in order to finish my degree on time...

so what to write...i left this page for quite some time now...probably more than 4 months...i have lotsa stories to share but seems to be of less or no value to you all coz its just a bunch of activities i did during the summer...it would be more meaningful to share what i learn throughout that time...

first of all, i learnt that i am a very shy person (tho some of you might disagree, but its true)...i have difficulty communicating with others...i realized this even more when i was at my workplace...i seemed to be lost coz i just dont connect with the other workers well...i just do my work and shut the hell up...even the other workers admit that i am the quiet type...i have no idea how to open up to others...i guess thats just the way i am...an introvert...i know i need to improve if i am to be successful...i just hope i can break the barrier that's holding me back...any suggestions?...

then...now that i am far apart from my family and loved ones...i realized how much i miss them...how much i took them for granted once in a while...i seem to forget how precious and meaningful they are in my life...its true when they say u wont realize how precious they are until you lose them or are far apart from them...but sometimes we are just so ignorant that we fail to make the most of the times we are together...and end up regretting it in the future...

on a different note...i had a discussion with a few of my CAPE friends the other day...a jiwang topic...about how we think that we have done so much, sacrificed so much, and spent so much for our partner that we seemed to get angry so easily when we dont get the same in return (i think thats the topic, i might be wrong)...but maybe we should step back and think deeply, perhaps our partner could've done even more, and sacrificed much more for us without us ever realizing it...love is give and take anyway...maybe we should just appreciate our partners and not get too selfish...

i feel like i have more to add...but i dont know an appropriate way to put it so i think i'll just end it here...i'll just leave the burden of thinking to my brain...how i wish i can sleep at night and all the problems can go away when i wake up...