a fresh new year...

i'm finally back in chch after a lengthy summer break back in malaysia...tho the hols seems to be long, the actual amount of time i spent 'holiday-ing' is less due to the practical work i have to complete in order to finish my degree on time...

so what to write...i left this page for quite some time now...probably more than 4 months...i have lotsa stories to share but seems to be of less or no value to you all coz its just a bunch of activities i did during the summer...it would be more meaningful to share what i learn throughout that time...

first of all, i learnt that i am a very shy person (tho some of you might disagree, but its true)...i have difficulty communicating with others...i realized this even more when i was at my workplace...i seemed to be lost coz i just dont connect with the other workers well...i just do my work and shut the hell up...even the other workers admit that i am the quiet type...i have no idea how to open up to others...i guess thats just the way i am...an introvert...i know i need to improve if i am to be successful...i just hope i can break the barrier that's holding me back...any suggestions?...

then...now that i am far apart from my family and loved ones...i realized how much i miss them...how much i took them for granted once in a while...i seem to forget how precious and meaningful they are in my life...its true when they say u wont realize how precious they are until you lose them or are far apart from them...but sometimes we are just so ignorant that we fail to make the most of the times we are together...and end up regretting it in the future...

on a different note...i had a discussion with a few of my CAPE friends the other day...a jiwang topic...about how we think that we have done so much, sacrificed so much, and spent so much for our partner that we seemed to get angry so easily when we dont get the same in return (i think thats the topic, i might be wrong)...but maybe we should step back and think deeply, perhaps our partner could've done even more, and sacrificed much more for us without us ever realizing it...love is give and take anyway...maybe we should just appreciate our partners and not get too selfish...

i feel like i have more to add...but i dont know an appropriate way to put it so i think i'll just end it here...i'll just leave the burden of thinking to my brain...how i wish i can sleep at night and all the problems can go away when i wake up...