boost!!!

i can sure use some boost...!!!
what the hell am i talking about? motivation, confidence, words of inspiration, a new goal in life...whatever form of boost that can make me lay my lazy ass firmly on the chair and open the book or browse thru my thick layers of lecture notes and start absorbing all the semester's materials into my rusty, slow and dried-up brain...

i wonder where i left all my enthusiasm in studying...could it be in malaysia last summer?...back in high school? (i didnt quite study in kmb)...shit...in deep shit...

what made me change?...what can change me back?...

its like i lost all hope of getting a decent degree since i stepped foot in canterbury...damn...
is all hope has been lost?...makes me wonder...

whatta hell am i babbling again...this is what im talking about...i got like 5 assignments but im here writing this blog...need to focus...