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what happening so far...

2009-05-03T19:39:00.002+12:00

i can't say i've settled in into my workplace because i haven't...plain and simple...i've been there for exactly a month and yet i am still floating from one desk to another when i'm in the control room...i have no workstation of my own (i don't think i will ever have one)...this is simply not the way i want to work...i think i would prefer being given a task and do it in my own space...i need my space...i hate sharing...especially when its not mine...darn...

the only good thing about this place is the food is cheap...and it makes saving money possible...besides that i hate it coz its so damn hot...the people talk in almost a different language...sometimes you just nod and smile...

the house is ok...but 1 problem after another keeps popping up...the internet never gets activated (we've applied for almost 3 weeks now)...my laptop crashed...i'll be going into shift hours next week meaning i will need a car...or else i need to tumpang people to work...shit...i'm in a mess...

all in all its a disaster...i still think i want to be in a technical sector rather than a non-technical one, but i would prefer if i get my own desk, my own computer and my own stationeries...i hate the condition i am in...please pray for my survival...that's all i can wish for right now...

and the working starts...

2009-04-05T17:45:00.002+12:00

its been a while...i have been away for almost three weeks due to pipe a.k.a induction program...the usual stuff...i've gone thru quite a few similar sessions to know the gist of the program...

i can't say much about work coz i've only been to work for one day and its hardly anything besides HSE and HRM briefing...so that will have to wait...

my house is still currently not connected with internet (but i've applied for one)...so much of the updating will be done after that happens...

this is just an intro for the things to come...chiaow...

Is there really a silver lining within the cloud?

2009-03-05T12:23:00.002+13:00

It all started well for me...everything was going according to plan...but as usual, no plan is foolproof...there is always a way for it to get disrupted...it is more disappointing when the fault is usually not ours but some other party...sound familiar...?

this has happen to me before yet why am i not prepared?...i knew it was all too good to be true...why was i not braced of the possibility of it happening again?...i guess i was too naive to believe everything would go my way anyway...guess again...life is never perfect...well at least i got my perfectly perfect support group; from my parents, my family, my Hanim and my friends...

if some of you might be thinking what the hell i'm talking about, just bear with me as the truth usually comes out...eventually...this is just a method for me to release some of the hatred i've been holding back...like a pressure relief valve...lol...that's as much of engineering i can remember...

anyway...life must and shall go on no matter what happens...and the world does not revolve around one's self...so i guess i have to pick myself up and get on with it...i'm too bored...

chiaow...

a fresh start?

2009-02-19T14:51:00.002+13:00

i have abandoned this blog for so long that it feels awkward when i sat in front of my laptop typing this...

i finished my studies in december...the graduation was awesome as my family were able to make it to the ceremony...i have left NZ and now i'm in my hometown in Kota Kinabalu...no more assignments, tests, late night studying for me...at least not for now...but i'm pretty sure there'll be quite a number of nights filled with staying up but for different reasons once i started working...

the next step for me would be working...i just secured a job in labuan with a local oil and gas company...i can't say i'm completely psyched about it...i wasn't expecting to get the job this soon...i think i could still use the rest...but i guess this would be for the better...i mean, too much rest and the rust in my brain might be irreversible...lol...

i just hope to excel in my next adventure the way i did (or not quite) in my previous ones...it has been a personal ambition of mine to help my family ie my parents and repay them for what they have done to me all this while...even though i think my success was more than enough for my parents, i still think it is the responsibility of the child to help out the parents as much as possible...and being the eldest has an added responsibility to it...

i guess i will stop here...i hope this is a new beginning for me in blogging...

p/s: i hope all my friends (smesh, chch) would keep in touch...find me in facebook

fuhhhh fuhhhh (blowin the acumulated dust away)

2008-06-12T23:18:00.002+12:00

I'm definitely no more an active blogger...that's official and for sure...

Just thinking of updating a bit on life and its challenges...
third pro of uni is definitely tiring...now with the research project sent and the design project completed (so far, still got loads to do tho), and with the test-during-study-week out of my way, i can finally flex my muscles a bit and spend time doing stuff i've been longing to do...which is nothing...

exam is on the way...a weeks time before my next paper...too early to study (i am not a good example for nerds)...i only have two exams this semester...which is a relief...i can't see myself behind stacks of books after what i've gone through...(sound like a lot aye? the thing is i am just plain lazy)...anyway i'm taking this opportunity to wish everyone the best of luck for their exams...let us include each other in our prayers as well...it is devastating when u succeed (by my definition is merely passing all subjects) but u know a friend just failed a paper...just takes the happiness away...so lets all do our best!!!

then there's the long-awaited interview...such a disappointment to learn that this year's interview is done in auckland instead of sydney...not fair!!!...why does it always have to be my turn when pet decides to change their policy...i've been screwed up time and again...sigh...

ooo yea... bersatu is coming too...always been looking forward for this annual event...but this year less than before...the preparations have'nt been great...everyone's busy i guess...i am busy...need to start going to the gym...get my fitness back up to par...probably do that tomorrow...

what else...ooo yea...oil prices are ridiculously high!!!...i think its the first time i've comment about such things but its about time i do so...i might not have felt the effect here in nz (coz i dont have a car)...but i'm definitely going to feel the pinch back in malaysia...i wonder if i can afford a car when i start working...damn it...i'm still not gonna get a kancil or a kelisa or whatever malaysian car there is (until they prove that its worth it tho)...damn...looks like i'm gonna have to stick to good old (still new actually) mum's car for now...hahaha...

i think im gonna stop here...another thing...who's gonna lift the euro 2008 cup? germany? portugal? holland? greece? (i was kidding when i put greece there, being sarcastic)...anyway, my favourites this time around is holland and portugal...but i won't be surprised if it was germany or spain either...all of them seem to have a formidable squad...so, go euro!!! just enjoy football as it should be...do i hear any amens? hehe

im off...

p/s: munzir, this one's for you...hoho

rhythm n talaan...

2008-04-16T23:37:00.007+12:00

why that title you may ask...?

well...it has to do with music actually...

i've been watching american idol and apparently they claim that this season the pool of contestant is the most talented they ever had...i have my personal favorite...the ladies would say that david archuleta is the best mainly coz their judgement is clouded by the fact that they think david is kinda cute and baby-faced...

the one i would be voting for (if i can) goes by the name david too...it's DAVID COOK...probably the next daughtry...yeah...he's the rock star of the group...and he can sing any song but still sound original and not boring...i like it when people give their own twist to a song...the same way anwar robinson sang 'what a wonderful world'...

check out this video (the original singer of the song was mariah carey, but david made it his own)

this one's the anwar robinson video:

a fresh new year...

2008-03-02T01:45:00.004+13:00

i'm finally back in chch after a lengthy summer break back in malaysia...tho the hols seems to be long, the actual amount of time i spent 'holiday-ing' is less due to the practical work i have to complete in order to finish my degree on time...

so what to write...i left this page for quite some time now...probably more than 4 months...i have lotsa stories to share but seems to be of less or no value to you all coz its just a bunch of activities i did during the summer...it would be more meaningful to share what i learn throughout that time...

first of all, i learnt that i am a very shy person (tho some of you might disagree, but its true)...i have difficulty communicating with others...i realized this even more when i was at my workplace...i seemed to be lost coz i just dont connect with the other workers well...i just do my work and shut the hell up...even the other workers admit that i am the quiet type...i have no idea how to open up to others...i guess thats just the way i am...an introvert...i know i need to improve if i am to be successful...i just hope i can break the barrier that's holding me back...any suggestions?...

then...now that i am far apart from my family and loved ones...i realized how much i miss them...how much i took them for granted once in a while...i seem to forget how precious and meaningful they are in my life...its true when they say u wont realize how precious they are until you lose them or are far apart from them...but sometimes we are just so ignorant that we fail to make the most of the times we are together...and end up regretting it in the future...

on a different note...i had a discussion with a few of my CAPE friends the other day...a jiwang topic...about how we think that we have done so much, sacrificed so much, and spent so much for our partner that we seemed to get angry so easily when we dont get the same in return (i think thats the topic, i might be wrong)...but maybe we should step back and think deeply, perhaps our partner could've done even more, and sacrificed much more for us without us ever realizing it...love is give and take anyway...maybe we should just appreciate our partners and not get too selfish...

i feel like i have more to add...but i dont know an appropriate way to put it so i think i'll just end it here...i'll just leave the burden of thinking to my brain...how i wish i can sleep at night and all the problems can go away when i wake up...

Once upon a time...

2007-10-12T22:28:00.000+13:00

We were frens...
No happy ending here...not yet...

Selamat Hari Raya everyone!!...Maaf Zahir Batin...

Updates...

2007-09-26T01:24:00.000+12:00

Wow...Its been quite a while...

It's the 4 th term now...approaching end of the semester hence end of the year as well...time to reflect the year and time to bury heads in between books and lecture notes (not like my notes are anywhere near completed)...exam is in about a month's time...am i ready? can i answer the questions if it were to be given to me tomorrow? the answer would be NO...i seemed to be so far behind in my studies that i'm not sure what ever the hell i've learnt this semester...i seemed to have forgotten most of them...too much dosa kot...huhu...

but this is no time to cry and regret all the lectures i missed and all the things Pat Jordan babbled about which i quite easily yawned at and ignored...i need to step up my game and hustle...i dont want my allowances to be suspended should i fail any subjects this semester...i wont allow that to happen...i only wiash i have the strength to pick myself up and study...

its the month of ramadhan...how have my ibadah been so far?...so-so i guess...havent been able to constantly attend prayers at the surau though...i think i cant concentrate on prayers if the imam recites too long an ayat...my mind tends to wander...i think its safer with me doing the reading and with shorter verses or surahs...yeah sounds like an excuse...argue it all you want...like i give a damn...i prefer to do it at home...

what else?...mmm summer vacation...still quite a long time to go...but i cant wait...just wanna get this year over with...stressed out...want some rest with my family and love ones...

sleepy...im out...

logic...

2007-08-28T05:51:00.000+12:00

its hard for us to do what we don't like to do...

but sometimes we have to do it...simply because it's the right thing to do...then again how do we define "right" from "wrong"?...this simply depends on what the general public thinks about the matter...for me, the best tool to use would be pure reasoning or deductive logic...yeah what a whole load of crap...

going down memory lane...why do u think our parents forced us to eat our greens when we were little?...veges are not that delicious when compared to chicken, ice cream, pizza whatever else there is...but still we were forced to eat them...why?...cant our parents tell that veges taste bad?...ok...first, we know our parents love us and they always want the best for us...secondly, despite the taste, veges are good for us...good things are usually not that tasty...medicine for one are not usually sweet, in fact most of the ones i can remember taste pretty bad that i might've felt even sick after taking them...well i'm no doctor but that's what i think...

it's hard for me to accept that people can't accept the reasoning behind the argument...for me, reasoning is the nearest to real truth...although not all matters can be solved through reasoning...religion for one is mostly faith and not so much logic involved in it...i choose not to touch so much on this as i'm no scholar and don't have that much knowledge in that area...see, i'm reasoning things out as i speak...or write...

the fact is reasoning could be the strongest argument we have in real life, and applies for most of the situations...when we can't accept the reasoning behind it, or simply chose to close our ears and hearts from the simple logic behind the matter then there's not much one can do to change our minds as they have simply been made up...and cemented with layers of bricks and filthy rocks...but most of the time we are making the wrong decision...only time can tell whether it was worth the ignorance and deaf ears...

i am simply frustrated...

after long last...

2007-08-25T03:10:00.000+12:00

its the holidays...
seems like ages since i last updated this damn thing...so here goes...

a lot has been going on in my life...gained something...lost something...

as what everyones seems to be saying ever since i came here...everything happens for a reason...or sume yg jadi ade hikmahnye...i thought it was a bad thing to be losing something...but it indeed thought me a lot about myself in return...so i see the silver lining in it...i can learn from that situation and make sure i don't make the same mistakes to other people...you guys must be kinda blur about what i'm talking about...who cares...i certainly don't...

hmmm...uni life sucks for me rite now...seems unlikely but yeah i do feel a wee bit homesick rite now...i missed home...im just counting the days to go back home to malaysia...i missed my parents...my younger brothers...my family...my gf...my hometown KK...ooo yeah!!!...sadly i wont be able to enjoy too much during the hols coz i'm gonna have to do my practical work...damn it!!!

well...i wanna sleep as much as i can during this mid sem break...i'm not going anywhere...i hope to get a job but that seems highly doubtful as i'm so lazy rite now...just gonna spend my time watching pirated movies...eating...sleeping...maybe football once in a while...some basketballing maybe...a good book perhaps...

something to look out for during the hols would be the talent nite organized by petsoc...i hope it'll be a success...so you guys reading this, make sure u turn up on 7 sept 07 ok...7 pm...how many more "7" can u ask for...hehe...look out for some outstanding singing performances...a few unpredictable faces polishing their singing skills on the stage aye...cmon y'all...don't make night as an excuse ok...hehehe... oo btw ticket price is a mere 5 bucks...coffee could cost more than that ok...and its not a fund-raising activity...just an activity for fun...so lets have FUN!!!

bla...bla...boring...holiday pun got assignments...

not so busy...

2007-07-31T22:44:00.001+12:00

apparently i feel that 2nd pro cape is not so busy compared to 1st pro...that's just what i think...i feel like i have quite a lot of free time at my disposal...how i wish i can use it to study...but i'm just too lazy...damn...

well we do have chemecar coming up in 1 week...my car is not even moving yet...we put everything on in one week only to take them off and put it back together the next week...tiring and frustrating...i just want to put everything together and pray it will run...as long as the car moves i'll be happy...i dont wanna win this shit...im too tired to think about it anymore...just wanna get it over with

i've been sick since last week...having fever...the first this year i think...despite feeling feverish...i end up going snowboarding last sunday...i dozed off as soon as i got home...my head was spinning up n until the next day in class...barely concentrating on pat jordan's soft voice...went home as soon as class ends and continued sleeping...that night i slept early (11 pm i think)...so most of my day was spent sleeping...my head was just killing me...

rite now i feel really dizzy too...i think i took too much medicine at one time...damn...my head's spinning...so im off...

best trip eva...

2007-07-12T13:16:00.001+12:00

nuff said..

sometimes i don't wanna change...

2007-07-11T02:05:00.000+12:00

changes happen...it's inevitable...no matter how hard we want it to stay...nothing can be exactly the same as it used to be...

been browsing thru a fren's (?) fp, looked back at the times when some frens n myself went for a picnic...it was fun looking at some of the expressions on their faces...how we had fun...together...

it makes me think...how long will this friendship last...i think i've posted a previous post similar to this one but who's counting rite?...
back to my topic...people change...friendships are made and broken...personality changes...new challenges appear...new situations...new environment...

sometimes i hate changes...when i'm already comfortable with the current situation...when everything's perfect the way it is...

but that's not my decision to make...that's just how life goes on...we are mere slaves...we have no control over it...we just hope for the best...

i'm babbling again...nonsense...

current progress..

2007-07-05T18:17:00.000+12:00

exams: ended...
bersatu games: ended...
holidays: still on...

let's start with the exams...
overall i think i did fairly well...it might not be excellent, but i think i did quite ok not to fail any papers, except for thermo which was conducted much2 earlier...damn rudi...
I am really thankful to Allah for giving me the ability and wisdom to answer the exams...also very thankful for having great friends to study with and support each other throughout the exams...
results coming out in two weeks time i think...just keeping my fingers crossed and praying for the best...

next...bersatu games...
a grueling week for all the volunteers involved...all the preparations seem to cover for nothing once the day comes...lotsa last minute changes...rescheduling...this and that...but thanks to all the people involved working together, the event was a great success...the games i personally took charge of; bowling and basketball was fairly smooth...i really like to thank all the admin and sports dept personnel who helped during the games...
how i did during the games...i just got 1 medal compared to two last year...but this year it was much sweeter since the medal's colour is gold!!!...petsoc's basketball team won the final match-up at cmsa's expense...it was indeed a happy moment for all the petsoc contingent who shouted their hearts out supporting us...this medal is for all of you guys too ok...
i would like to also thank all my sports captains for their effort in handling training for the past few months...lets try harder next year and win more medals next year ok...

holidays...
actually now i can start to enjoy my holiday...or what's left of it...
i dont have much money to go anywhere...nor do i have any plans for sightseeing...so im pretty much stuck at home...watching tv and accumulating fat (which i get rid off most of it before bersatu...hohoho)...i think i'll just find some movies or series and lie in bed watching all of them...so if any of u guys have any suggestions plz do so...
looking forward for harry potter next week...ooo yeah!!!

so that's all for now...dont try to contact me on my hp coz i lost it...yeah...i did attempt the ford focus advert...apparently ira's car is no ford focus...hohoho...smooth as...i need to start collecting money for a new phone...
what phone will i buy? let it remain a mystery...

exam fever...

2007-06-19T18:20:00.000+12:00

everyone seems to have posted a new entry for the upcoming (currently going on) exams. It feels just right that i put up one myself.

its the time of the year where everyone seems to start to open their books (this only applies to similar species as me) and really start to digest whatever the hell they learned throughout the semester...it was really helpful to have such wonderful frens and course mates who understand the need to study and help one another in their revision...

i really appreciated the help all my course mates have given during the study session we had at maidstone or at the uni...i find these sessions really useful in understanding the topics i am not really aware of (coz i missed class...hoho)...eventho most of the time we end up chit chatting or watching movies...the time,the precious little time spent studying could've made all the difference in the world once exam day comes...

so i'd like to thank all my course mates for their help...thanks to everyone for their good luck wishes...i'd also like to wish everyone the best of luck and do pray for our success in the exam and also in life...
GLUCK Y'ALL

damn...got addicted to doing this kinda stuff...

2007-06-13T00:46:00.001+12:00

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have low extroversion.
You are quiet and reserved in most social situations.
A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you.
You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people.

Conscientiousness:

You have high conscientiousness.
Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.
Most things in your life are organized and planned well.
But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.

Agreeableness:

You have medium agreeableness.
You're generally a friendly and trusting person.
But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.
You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.

Neuroticism:

You have medium neuroticism.
You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.
Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.
Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

Got this from tengkuk's page

2007-06-12T23:37:00.000+12:00

Your Famous Movie Kiss is from Romeo + Juliet

"Has my heart loved 'till now? Forswear it, sight! For I never saw a true beauty 'till this night."

What Famous Movie Kiss Are You?

boost!!!

2007-05-29T00:35:00.000+12:00

i can sure use some boost...!!!
what the hell am i talking about? motivation, confidence, words of inspiration, a new goal in life...whatever form of boost that can make me lay my lazy ass firmly on the chair and open the book or browse thru my thick layers of lecture notes and start absorbing all the semester's materials into my rusty, slow and dried-up brain...

i wonder where i left all my enthusiasm in studying...could it be in malaysia last summer?...back in high school? (i didnt quite study in kmb)...shit...in deep shit...

what made me change?...what can change me back?...

its like i lost all hope of getting a decent degree since i stepped foot in canterbury...damn...
is all hope has been lost?...makes me wonder...

whatta hell am i babbling again...this is what im talking about...i got like 5 assignments but im here writing this blog...need to focus...

liked this song...

2007-05-19T11:39:00.000+12:00

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus Your Guardian Angel

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away, Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

"I'll be there for you, will you?...."

test

2007-05-10T00:30:00.000+12:00

despite having a test next week...exam actually...i have some spare time to create this quiz for any of my friends who's up to the task...i'm bored actually...
here goes nothing... btw this is a test about me...see if u know me...
http://www.testriffic.com/friendtest/3400472

exhausted...

2007-04-11T01:52:00.000+12:00

hectic last couple of weeks of uni...
8 assignments in 2 weeks plus a practical report due on the last week...damn!

i gave a sigh of relief that it is now the easter hols and i am 'free'...ooo shit...have to hold my breath for a wee bit longer coz i have to send in another lab report by this thursday...shit...im going to queenstown on that day so that means i have to finish by wednesday nite...damn2!! thats tonite (after 12am)...damn3!!!

shit...still have to get busy tonite...that is why i havent been updating my blog until now...quite a good excuse aye...

well...whats interesting in my life apart from the part that i am stuck at somewhere i dont want to be...?...absolutely nothing else...no wonder i dont wanna be here...
well...thank god the people here are nice...have lotsa fun with u guys...especially petsoc members...just finished games nite...good turnout...congrats to farid for the smooth running of the activity...
we organized bowling nite as well...quite a success...everything was smooth up to the very end...just that we had to do the prize giving ceremony outside (remember "we wanna go home too")...thanks to everyone especially the drivers that nite...and my sports department personnel who were in charge; gu, ila munzir...

it makes me think...how many of my current friends will continue being my friend even until i finished uni life and start working and so on...what makes a good friend?...how to create a good friendship bond?...one that will remain constant with time if not stronger...have i found that kinda friends here?...i sure hope so...i hate to imagine that i am not gonna continue being friends with all of those i already know...that kinda sucks...unless they dont wanna be friends with me laa...maybe im the lousy friend...shit repeated usage of the word "friend" is unavoidable due to shallow vocabulary...

this post is just a thought...am i a good friend?...will i be remembered and be befriended (is that a correct word) by many?...will u be my friend???

sounds desperate aye...im just in search of a true friend...i dont have that many...

priorities...

2007-03-12T01:29:00.000+13:00

friends or lover?
work or play?
head or heart?
shout or silent?
happy or mad?

which am i....?

just a lazy post by me...

back in new zealand in a horrible fashion...

2007-02-21T15:38:00.000+13:00

screwed up people doing pretty screwed up stuff...
the idea of going back to new zealand was bad enuff, but i had to endure an even emotionally troubling situation once i got to auckland airport...

customs sucks...the last time i went thru there they just checked out my stuff (by stuff i mean food)...this time they had dogs check all my things and the customs took out all my belongings inside my bags...which fyi i spent a whole lot of time putting them into the bags...

sound normal? wait till u hear this...they checked my coffee...yes u heard right...coffee...they had some guys analyse it and guess what they've found out?...my COFFEE had traces of explosives!!!wtf??!!!...not just a little reading...but a very high reading...they immediatley read me my rights..."i had the right for a lwayer...had the right to remain silent...bla...bla..."...whatta? i mean...dont jump to conclucions man...i'm just a student coming back reluctantly from my home country and ur suspecting me of trying to blow up something?...never passed my mind...

instead of the usual half an hour to 1 hour wastage at the customs...i was held for 3++ hours...whata???...my friends who was supposed to pick me up went back to his house thinking that i missed my flight or somthing worse...the customs didnt even let me make a phone call to inform him nor go out for a while to tell him im stuck there....

i was interrogated...i was ask all sorts of questions about my faith and religion and my stuff was checked...each n every 1 of them...if thats not invasion of privacy i dont know what is...they even ask me to open my laptop...thank god its new (hehehehehe) n still doesnt have any kinda "stuff"...not that im a big fan of "stuff" but you know what i mean rite?...they even asked me to give a dna sample or fingerprint so that i can be on their database...am i a criminal now?...but since it was optional...i didnt do it...hell no!!!...i came here against my will...why should i do anything else against my desire only coz they suspect me of some crappy reason...damn!!!...

in the end they did let me go...but i had to repack my own bags...had to answer some questions from the police and had to endure a lifetime of disgust!!!...shit...and its just becoz of my coffee...why dont they just have some hot water and have a sip of the coffee...i can guarantee thats its just coffee...

yeszaaa....!!!

2006-11-07T22:49:00.000+13:00

finally!!!exams is over...the happy thing bout it was that it kinda ended on a high note since the thermo exam was quite doable...and i am pretty confident of my ability to pass this subject...i really hope i do...
3 days from now...i am going to australia for a 10 days vacation...going with sam, ira n ila...i hope i can do n see exciting stuff there...with the limited resources i have both in terms of money n knowledge bout the place...
this year is full of mixed emotions n experiences...but this post is not one where i sum up how the year has been...this is just to express my feeling of relief that the exam is finally over...! hooray!
to all who will be going back to msia soon, i wish u have fun back home and all the best for anyone doing their practical work...i hope i can get ajob this summer...even if its 30 days...ooo shit...i havent took the form...need to do that tomorrow...
im sleepy...zzzZZZzzZZzzz

it takes two to tango...

2006-10-31T13:00:00.000+13:00

two more papers to go...yet the biggest pressure yet...heat and mass transfer worth 80% and thermo worth 70%...pretty screwed up aye...
its still the raya week (raya was on tuesday), yet i dont feel the "suasana" of raya...well not with too much things to cover...study i mean...then again ive been to a few open houses...thanks for the great food...and thanks to everyone who came to our (301) open house on saturday...it was really a blast!...siap tak cukup lak tuh...ramai giler org...too many dishes to wash lak...hehe
hmmm why the hell am i writing this...i should be studying...on that note, i'm off

i felt the need to update...

2006-10-20T02:48:00.000+13:00

friday...
study progress: heat and mass transfer almost done...should be done by tonite eventho i havent been really satisfied with it...(masih tak paham)...tomorrow start with materials...ooo yeah!...BCC n FCC n eutectoid ; among the terms i can still remember...

ramadhan:fasting hasnt been a problem...tarawih alone...quran??need to improve...

physical:getting heavier (fat is a sensitive term to use on myself...hehe)...less exercise...no one ajak main bola ptg2...me n alip went basketballing this evening...need to get some sweat out...i think im eating too much...

mental:completely!!!

anything new:yes!!! 10^-9...can anyone guess?...alip takyah teka aa orait

cravings:pari bakar dgn kuah yg best yg jual kat bazaar ramadhan kat asia city(KK)...my nenek's kuah kacang (the best ever) with lamban n nasi impit...dim sum (hyatt...u just wait), all the dim sum here are doubted halal...mmm it seems too many to be listed la...lagi2 nak raya...

emotions:nervous coz the exams almost here...missing my family at home, my two little bros, tgu abg balik bawa bola yg korg nak tuh, tak lupe aa...laa mcm adik2 aku baca blog aku jeh....also some mixed-weird-unexplainable emotions that resulted from various reasons

shoutout:to everyone...be it in chch or any of my frens back home or anywhere...hope u guys had a memorable ramadhan...hope u guys complete the remining days of fasting n tarawih with joy(whatta?...cant think of any other adjectives at the moment)...selamat hari raya (tho its in a few days time)...maaf zahir batin from the bottom of my heart (tetiba rasa pelik,dlm english ckp dari hati, dlm malay ckp dari rambut sampai kaki)...anyway i'm apologizing to anyone whom i may have hurt in any way...hope u guys can forgive my foolishness...halalkan anything i might have owed u unless u wanna claim them rite now...i am happy to pay them, its just that i might've forgotten some of them...

back to study!!!wish me luck n pray for my success y'all!!!gluck to u guys too!!!

matlab n the tea party...how are they synonimous?

2006-10-12T22:58:00.000+13:00

anyone has any ideas?...its not becoz the tea party was programmed using matlab or they have the same number of words coz they werent and dont...
the similarity i meant here is that tomorrow would be the day i sent my last asmt which happened to be a matlab asmt and tomorrow there will be the tea party indicating the end of lectures...i heard that the intermediate students' last asmt would also be their matlab second case study...am i rite or am i rite?...
as much as i am looking forward for the end of lectures party (eventho i'm not gonna be there...dah aa bulan pose, korg nih...), the more irritating fact is that i still havent completed my matlab asmt...how can i party (i mean celebrate lecture dah habis) when i'm still doing my asmts?...damn... well actually i already started holidays anyway...semgu tak pegi lecture!whohooo!mcm sengal je rasanya...alip aa nih...tido depan tv...aku pon tepaksa tido gak...huahaha...

boiler ku yg hampeh...

2006-10-09T21:27:00.000+13:00

'sesal dahulu pendapatan, sesal kemudian tak berguna'...
the problem was that i regret after i did something i regretted...but i never seem to get the urge to not to regret again...got what i mean?...kinda confusing aye...probably thats the sleepiness inside of me...
yeah i lacked sleep during the weekends coz i was doin my boiler report...damn how i wished i started earlier...well rice has become porridge (i'm sure if ur non msian and reading this entry ud probably be as blurred as i am)...three more assignments to go and this year would be over from any more assignments...except the exams that is...shit...am i screwed up or what...id like to advice all my adik2 intermediate tuh supaya start aa ur work earlier and not do them at the last minute like i did...eventho thats how my work has been for quite some time, and yes i am kinda good at it (cehhhh...nak sedapkan hati aa nih)...but the fact of the matter is that ud be definitely better off starting ur tasks early...not only do u have ample time to check n recheck..u can also most-of-the-time produce a better result than doing it last minute...unless ur an expert like me (skali lagi nak sedapkan hati...jgn aa layan diriku yg tgh sewel tak cukup tido nih)...

well...its time for me to pick myself up...dust the debris off my clothes...set my goals straight...and stride towards my goals by any means posible...i ll run, walk, damn ill crawl if i have to...but hear me right...i will...i repeat...i will reach my goal!...yeah semangat!...tapi nak tido japs...huahaha...

no.....

2006-10-04T23:02:00.000+13:00

no.....boiler report havent started....dammit...!
was browsing at others' blogs and realized that some of u guys really put lotsa effort into your blogs...kinda felt tercabar skit...well...i was thinking of creativating (is this even a word?) my blog a little bit but i dont have the time...maybe i would do so during the hols...the long n much anticipated summer hols...im sure i got plenty of time to "decorate" my blog...perhaps add some pics...just too lazy to do it rite now...
well...gotta start my report...chow
ooo just adding...my thermo test sucks...the results were out n its not very pleasant

unbelievable...

2006-10-01T22:11:00.000+13:00

despite the absence of my beloved laptop...as alip said it can be considered as a gf to me...well a second gf in this case...hehe...i can still find the time to update my blog...so u guys yg ade laptop no excuses aye...
well what to blabber about this time?...
oo yeah...tec...a new tec was chosen today...well i dunno is it fortunate or unfortunate that im not in it...in a way, i can be relieved that i have less work to do and can concentrate on my studies...yea rite...then again...i dont think ill have another opportunity to hold a position in the future...ye la next year dah 3rd pro rite...sibuk weih...but i have full confidence in the new team and would give full support to the new tec team...
anyway...i hope i can get thru this 2 weeks of this term left...then a week of study week...then exam...cool!...
actually i have no idea what to write...
ooo 1 thing...a funny yet weird situation happened last nite during the buka puasa beramai2 at ilam common room..yeah i bet all u guys know about the brother umar incident rite?...well what do u guys think about it?...personally...i think its no big deal but then again we're dealing with cross-cultures rite now...so maybe the situation is quite different...well voice out ur views u guys...
im bored...can u tell?...i hope Man Utd win tonite...ooo yeah!

did i spoke too soon...?

2006-09-28T22:17:00.000+12:00

when i thought that this would be the ramadhan to remember...it turn out to be one i would want to forget...
some assholes (mind the vulgarity...but damn i'm pissed off!) broke into our house last night...dammit...get a life dumbass'...stop ruining others'...i lost my most expensive possession...please dont say something crappy that'll piss me off further aight...they got my laptop...all my reports, pictures, files, games, whateva shit that i put inside it could be lost forever...timeless memories gone coz of some guys who dont have something more important to do in their life stole it...dammit!
shit happens...this wont be an amazing year anyway...its full-o-shit...shit keeps on happening...
this comes to show how crappy life can be...i just hope i can claim my stuff from the insurance company...that'll brighten up a bit my already dimly lit year...screw you guys...
i am still hoping this ramadhan could turn out to be much better...please...

how it was...

2006-09-27T00:59:00.000+12:00

it was fine so far...im talking about ramadhan...well i know its only been 2 days...but i think i can see this ramadhan to be a sweet one!...i hope it would be...
so far...assignments have been delivered on time...i dont feel the type of pressure as the previous assignments...maybe coz these ones are relatively "easy"...the real test would be when i need to finish my supposed-to-be-about-60pages-long boiler report in the next week...huhu
well...the year is almost over...i mean the uni year...raya is coming...then i'll be going home...b4 that i'll be going to aussie to jalan2....ooo yeah!
well first things first...need to concentrate on my puasa...thats the most important thing rite now...then i need to increase skit2 amalan tuh...hehe...then i need to focus on completing my assignments the best i can...then study all my might for the exams...then i need to work skit2 to get money to go shopping in msia...then i can relax...then kene keje practical lak...down...
well...thats how it was so far...

heart not satisfied (tak puas hati aa nih)...

2006-09-22T22:52:00.000+12:00

apsal?...why?...
coz...i think im getting dumb!...dammit...i sat for about 1 hour looking at my coil on solid works yet i havent got a clue how to extend the pipes at the ends...i was hoping to find some other chemical engineers...but to my despair...non were in sight...except ben robinson...not that close to him...
now i am looking at my mass transfer assignment...not that sure about it either...i put the paper back into my bag...and now...i am looking at my 250 safety assignment...ok la...this one can do a little2 (skit2)...
aaaaa...i miss chemistry!...where are all the chemical formula and reactions and energetics and kinetics and organics and all those other stuff...i think this is the only subject i can master quite quickly compared to others...especially not maths!

inspired...

2006-09-22T13:43:00.000+12:00

i woke up late...didnt went to two lectures...assignments still long way away from completion...but i am inspired...not coz im screwed up or sumthing...but coz i just heard a very inspiring khutbah by abg hamdan during friday prayers...
i need a ramadhan...why?...coz this is the time of the year where one really starts to ponder and starts to realize the importance of being a muslim and the reason we were sent to this world...well at least i do...
i know i'm not the best muslim out there...if you were to point out a muslim friend to be taken as example from...i'm sure no one would point at me...i know i am not the most pious of persons...yet i do work towards becoming a better person, physically, mentally and even spiritually...and this holy month of ramadhan made me more aware of my responsibilities and my reason of existance...
i know i should've been consistent throughout the year, heck even throughout my lifetime if not better...but it seemed so hard...i dunno...maybe i need my enlightenment as well...
well...in short...i need a ramadhan...who knows maybe this ramadhan would be the fresh start i'm looking for...and who knows maybe this ramadhan would be the one where all good things lie ahead of me after a year of disasters in my life...who knows...?...The Almighty knows...

holding on...

2006-09-20T04:28:00.000+12:00

still holding on...
its 4 am...like i dont have something else to do but to write this entry...
i just finished (for the nite...or morning) my report...its not complete...but i really had done some progress compared to a few days back...just need to confirm few things with frens tomorrow then i can complete the calculations and finish the 'gorengan' parts...such as discussion...oo yeah...it really tests my skills of proffessional crapping...yeah u heard me...'crap'ing...usually not much thought put into the section...just mere concepts and flowery sentences...huahaha
well, enuf with assignments already...i wanna talk about something else...
where do i start...hmm...come to think of it...my brain's too strained to be coming up with topics...hahaha...sorry guys...just wanna make this post longer...hmmm...my brain cant work very well at this hour...so i'm off to go sleep at the couch...im pretty sure aiman's already on one of the couches...i'll take the other one...i feel i can get up mush easier when i sleep on the couch...my bed's too comfy...too irresistabubble!...huahaha...now...u guys are reading my crapping rite now...getting senile by the minute...not permanently tho...just due to tiredness...
so im going to sleep...chow...my eyes started to water already...

warming...

2006-09-17T21:01:00.000+12:00

the good news bout today was that i already started on my evaporator report...the bad news was that it was not much!just a little theory part...havent even gotten into the calculations yet...damn im slow...
alip, napie, anas n myself went to newbridge today.newbridge?never heard of it?well its the new girls house resided by mun, che ah and anne...its located sumwhere along maidstone road...i think so...not that good with places around here...lots of other guys came as well...tengkuk, tomen, supep, ila, ain, bijan, bernie to name a few...the hosts were having a house warming event for their newly resided home...not sure how long theyve been staying there tho...we recited surah yasin n doa lead by napie...then...guess what?we makan la!well i wouldnt avoid free food now wouldnt i?well not most of the times...
tonite gotta do my report a little bit more...at least if i can finish all the intro, methods, apparatus parts tonite i would be happy enuf...tomorrow i can start the calculations, appendices, results, and the rest of it...that'd be sweet...!
ooo ya...i need to finish my job early because tonites theres gonna have 2 very much anticipated matchups...chelsea vs liverpool...and...Man Utd vs arsenal!...go MAN UTD!...i hope theyre gonna put on a fine performance and beat arsenal to take back the lead from portsmouth...go rooney n ronaldo...!ooo yeah!

not very fruitful

2006-09-16T21:29:00.000+12:00

i am referring to today...not the most fruitful of days...woke up late...what do ya expect when i slept when the sun almost rose...not much work done...yet...i still hope i can get my report started...
i had just read anas' blog (http://www.kisahitu.blogspot.com/), and really liked the latest entry...a little a lot splashed on me (sedikit sebyk tempias kat aku)...not to mention the intended similarity of names and venue selection to that of common knowledge(he emphasized it has nothing to do with any mates)...
it makes you think...n damn i never stop thinking...if only i could just get on with life the way the rest of my frens did...maybe i wont be stuck here regretting everything...think again...what if...what if...stop it already!...
aaahhh...this comes to show how feeble men are...well maybe not all men...maybe its just me...maybe i lack the mental strength, not being resolute...i dunno...i am weak...i admit it...
how could i do things better?...

cant wait!...

2006-09-16T01:34:00.000+12:00

let me start off with an expression that this hasnt been the best of weeks...it hasnt been so for quite some time...its very hectic...well with my work ethics not improving...it mightve been worse...my bad habit of procastinating wasnt helping either...fresh start...fresh start...where do i even begin...
ok...maybe some of u cant relate this to the topic...but actually all this workload has made me very impatient for the holidays to come...thats why i cant wait...i really need a break from this year...furthermore...i really missed my family back home...cant wait to see them...my parents...my brothers...all three of them...it was kinda heartbreaking to hear from my little bro that he was sad that i couldnt be home for raya with them the second year running...
i cant wait to finish all my assignments!...the next few weeks gonna be hectic like hell...i got like 5-6 assignments to be completed including two lab reports...ooo yeah...another materials lab report coming up next week...damn....
i hope i can get all this over with and hope to do a good job on each task...i really hope so...all the marks are important at this stage...i also hope my finals would be fine...damn im scared...

im in deep shit...not literally!

2006-09-13T12:56:00.000+12:00

dammit! i screwed my thermo test big time!...the thing that pisses me off was that i think the questions werent that hard...its just like my mind became blank all of a sudden!im pretty sure the rest of the class could do it, no problem...in deep shit!
i just hope i'll be back here next year...

i need books!

2006-09-12T00:28:00.000+12:00

no...not academic books!...novels...i havent been reading lately...it could be due to the fact that i have been really engrossed in my study (i bet i was!)...too many assignments and lab reports...damn!...cant find the time to read for leisure...
i cant really remember the last book i read...it could be the archer book i borrowed from sam...n i felt that seemed like ages ago...shit...
i am really looking forward for the holidays...i need to start reading again...gonna start a reading marathon like i did the last summer holidays...
so anyone have any suggestions for me to read during the holidays?...it would be nice if i could borrow them from u as well...sweet...

great day!

2006-09-11T18:58:00.000+12:00

the chemical engineering students had a picnic yesterday...sweet as...everyone brought food n we had a great time...
the food was great...the venue was also good...the wheather was never better...it was the perfect day...pretty much aye...
we played some games afterwards...just for fun...had great laughs 'kutuking' some guys and demonstrators...ooo it was just fun...then we rent a singstar set n sang our lungs out...ara nak sgt nyanyi kan...hepi dah...
i hope we'll stay close despite the increasing workload...lets have more of these kinda activities...

glory...glory...man united!

2006-09-09T15:58:00.000+12:00

tonite's gonna be a mouthwatering encounter between Man Utd (the 2006/07 champion-to-be) and one of the big spenders this season...tottenham hotspurs....ooo yeah!
without the suspended duo of scholes n rooney,man utd's gonna rely on the vast experience of giggs and the ever-so-menacing pace and speed of saha to spearhead their attack...i hope tonite's game gonna be awesome...n that man utd's gonna emerge victorious n mantain their 100% record!...oo yeah...n eventually be the champions...it has been too long for a 'real' champion to win the league...a real english team, a team built on strong foundations and a combination of youth n experience not rely on superstars who are lured by money!...oo yeah...no offense to the u-know-which team supporters...i'm just being a fanatic here...
lets watch the game tonite!ooo yeah!
another thing...sharapova n federer are gonna win their respective us open title!ooo yeah!

plz let me go back home...

2006-09-08T15:19:00.000+12:00

someone's forcing me to stay at the uni despite my intentions to go back home...huhu...
can i go home now?....huhu
die tgh stadi...but me...i'm doing this...

i got thru the first week!...but...

2006-09-08T01:42:00.000+12:00

phew!...relief!...just friday to go and here come the weekends!groovy!

i may not be entirely satisfied with the quality of the assignments i sent in...everything was done in the nick of time...i wouldnt be surprised if i get terrible marks for my heat transfer assignment...this comes to show that my time management is still lacking...not to mention my habit of procastinating...

looking forward to a fresh start...i dunno how many times i said this but everytime i felt down...i thought of a fresh start...however...i havent been able to be consistent...its like the amount of gas was not enough to take me to the end...i always coughed and hiccupped and jolted and eventually came to a halt somewhere down the road...seldom close to the finish line...i need to find my motivation back...i cant seem to find something strong enough to push me to the checkered flag...

i dunno how much longer i can continue doing this...i cant hope to survive on my last minute boost all the time...i am pretty sure this strategy would backfire one day...as it almost did this week...when will i ever learn my lesson?...its not the first time i face a similar situation...yet i havent took any initiative to rectify my actions...just hoping that my luck wont run out...yet... and that i would learn my lesson soon enough before id regret it...

help...anyone?...any ideas?

hols almost over...

2006-09-01T02:06:00.000+12:00

damn! thats the first word that came to my mind when i realized that lecture's gonna start in 4 days...

4 assignments to hand up in the first week and to wrap up a 'perfect' week, a thermo test must be faced on friday...it doesnt gets any better than this...believe me...

holidays...a combination of happy n very sad feelings...extremely happy when anim came n visit me here in chch...not many places were able to be visited due to lack of finance...but just having her here meant a whole lot to me...enjoying the time together...extremely sad to let her and see her go back to msia...its been painful...

workshop...i had three days of workshop...learnt using some kinda machine (forgot the name la)...basically it cuts steel so that some other objects can be made (we made a plump bob...whatever that is)...using that machine was cool...tho it was oily n made my lab coat kinda dirty (i hate it when whites gets dirty!...actually i hate it when anything gets dirty)...but the machine was waaaay cooler than welding...dunno why i dont really like welding...altho it was kinda exciting to be able to do those connectings n lines and whateva...but its not a task id rather be doing for the rest of my life or even for leisure...in a nutshell...the workshop helped a lot in terms of knowing safety aspects of handling the tools and machines...but we cant really learnt that much in terms of skills and techniques of using them in such a short period of time...

mlm msia...i dunno if its appropriate to comment on this...so if any of u guys are the organizing committee or cmsa students...plz know that this is not intended to condemn u guys...just a comment from a neutral perspective n perhaps can be improved in the future...
+ves - great concept, great venue, great food (quality food...but some might agree that the quantity was not much...but thats what we pay for right?so i think its okay maybe...), great mc's, great settings (acoustics,lightings,bla..bla), great ticket!, great backdrop...many more aspects are great...cant remember all
-ves - not really fluent flow (technical faults were unavoidable...but there were also few 'awkward moments' when i dunno whats going on), the program seemed 'empty' at times...maybe the intervals can be filled with someone singing or some more performances (i understand that not many volunteers were available...but since this was a msian night i think there should be performances from all races eg: chinese n indian, then we can show our diverse culture to the mat salleh's that were present)...
as a whole...i think it was ok...a really good night...oo another thing...great prizes!the coupons and vouchers was really a good idea...
i hope its taken as 'teguran membina' not 'kutukan' coz i think it was a really good event...

damn!

2006-08-15T01:11:00.000+12:00

a happy week ruined by a horrible nite...shit!
all my anger for this one person bottled up since i kno her suddenly burst tonite...
damn...she'll probably be going around telling all the other girls or even guys that i'm the problem or sumthing...(she does that so often that i'm immune if it)...
u think ur so good?...look at the mirror...face the facts of life...grow up...u need to be...

Newbie

2006-08-01T23:46:00.000+12:00

thats who i am rite now...!
just been introduced by a fren to this new site...